Some thoughts are like that sleight of hand video with the basketball players and the guy in the gorilla suit walks by unnoticed. They pass by just under your awareness. They might be valuable.
You have to build the substance of a man from the inside out.
He couldn't keep everything he'd seen in his head any longer. He had to get it out and make sense of it. He couldn't empathize with people anymore if he even could before. There was simply no connection. He could listen to their words and try to understand but inside he often wished they would just go away. Not sure if that's a bad thing or not.
He just didn't care about them any more. He felt he'd given too much and wasn't going to do it any more. He'd help but he wasn't sacrificing himself any more. He had to tell someone so he chose to tell everyone.
His parents were like neighbors you'd see every now and then. They seemed like nice people but any time spent together always eventually became uncomfortable.
It was time to grow up and not in the way people usually think. It wasn't time to take on more responsibility it was time to let some things go. Drop the baggage that wasn't his and the problems that weren't his to fix.
It seemed he always was holding something back. Maybe it was after his first heartbreak. Maybe earlier he wasn't sure. Always wanting more and never quite knowing how to get it.
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